I haven’t
written in a long time and here’s my
reasons of it. I am just so tired. I am feeling terrible and exhausting writing
this in 11pm. I don’t know what exactly is going on with my life but I am so
sick with it in general. I mean I don’t like how I am living. I would change
like a lot of things right now. But this is one of that moments when you are
not happy with yourself and your life. And it happens to everyone just because
it is life and there’s always ups and downs you need to come through. The most terrible part of it is that you can’t
run away, hide in the corner and wait for the help, but you need to take this, accept
this and move on.
There is so
many things that I decided to do but, actually I can’t. I just don’t have time
or I am so lazy to do this or I am finding so many excuses. And there is a lot
of pressure to deal with. I passed all my exams last month and I applied to
many universities to be a student ( Even though I don’t wanna be the one). Also,
there is an exciting news – I created a YouTube channel but I didn’t upload any
video because I am so scared and this blog is a total disaster. I see that many
of you read this posts but you don’t leave any comments and that way I feel
really terrible because I think you don’t like it. And it’s the worst thing on
earth, believe me.
I don’t
really know what to write about but all I am doing is self-pity. And all I am
doing is writing about my problems and I know it’s boring. I will try to write
about more positive stuff and, maybe, one day one of my posts will put on a
smile on your face. Thank you for being here with me - the only place on earth
where I can be truly myself.
Love
