A Little Too Much

I haven’t written  in a long time and here’s my reasons of it. I am just so tired. I am feeling terrible and exhausting writing this in 11pm. I don’t know what exactly is going on with my life but I am so sick with it in general. I mean I don’t like how I am living. I would change like a lot of things right now. But this is one of that moments when you are not happy with yourself and your life. And it happens to everyone just because it is life and there’s always ups and downs you need to come through. The most terrible part of it is that you can’t run away, hide in the corner and wait for the help, but you need to take this, accept this and move on. 

There is so many things that I decided to do but, actually I can’t. I just don’t have time or I am so lazy to do this or I am finding so many excuses. And there is a lot of pressure to deal with. I passed all my exams last month and I applied to many universities to be a student ( Even though I don’t wanna be the one). Also, there is an exciting news – I created a YouTube channel but I didn’t upload any video because I am so scared and this blog is a total disaster. I see that many of you read this posts but you don’t leave any comments and that way I feel really terrible because I think you don’t like it. And it’s the worst thing on earth, believe me. 

I don’t really know what to write about but all I am doing is self-pity. And all I am doing is writing about my problems and I know it’s boring. I will try to write about more positive stuff and, maybe, one day one of my posts will put on a smile on your face. Thank you for being here with me - the only place on earth where I can be truly myself.

Love